I have NO idea! I find my mind wandering around that question, over and over again. What does life hold for me? What am I meant to do? Am I meant to go somewhere, or stay put? Job? Change? It seems like a waiting game. How long can I hold out, and what do I win for holding out so long? Most big decisions in my life have sort of fallen into my lap; jobs, decision to go to school, cars, trips, etc. I keep looking at my lap, waiting for whatever it is to appear. Just looked. Nope, still nothing.
This phase in my life has taken a lot longer to figure out than any other phase. The I-graduated-from-college-and-should-get-my-life-together-but-don't-quite-know-how-to phase. Confusion. Patience. Searching. Waiting. Filling my time with 'in the mean time' tasks. It's an odd feeling. Waiting for something, but not sure what to look for, or even where to begin. Pressure to conform to societal norms. Watching friends and peers figuring life out, and even impressively excelling. I'm told its a common feeling and reality for my age group. But that is no consolation. Open to suggestions (hint, hint). So, with no clear vision or revelation, I guess I'll just continue to sip my wine, one glass at a time.
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