Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Coasts and Cornfields


Going home is filled to the brim with conflicting emotions and thoughts. My homesickness was recently appeased with a long weekend home. But the whole time I was there, I couldn't stop analyzing how and why I was feeling the way I was. Sure, everyone seems about the same as I left them. Their characteristics, their jobs, location and life in general, but my relationship with them has shifted. Love and friendship are still present, but the closeness necessitated by physical proximity is diminishing. I call. I do my best to keep up, but friendships are rooted in the little, daily happenings. In knowing that one story about the time they stood in line behind a bum in the grocery store guzzling a whole gallon of milk on a hot summer day. And being able to recount and laugh about them.

When time passes, and you are physically away, knowing about those little moments gets harder and harder. I can find out the main categories about people by asking on the phone, but am I really gonna sit on the phone for hours with each of these people each day and ask about every moment of their day? No. But if I were hanging out on their back porch with them, then those things would come up.

This is especially true and difficult with the nieces and nephews. I have lived in the same house as them for their whole lives up until a year ago. I knew all the stories, all the words they said funny, and all the embarrassing stuff they won't want me to tell when they are older. And even though I call often, I am not there to reinforce my relationship with them. Will they forget who I am? In a few years, will they even remember the time that I lived there? I have a close relationship with them now, but will that slowly diminish the longer I am away?

I was happily eager to get home to Omaha at the end of my trip. That's a good thing, right? It means I am happy to call this place home. But feeling bittersweet about the "two" homes that I have. The friends and family in two different places. As I adjust to my surroundings here, by making new friends and establishing myself, I can't help but think about what is 'left behind' me and wonder what I am missing out on. But then I am reminded of all the new adventures that are still in store for me here, my story I am creating every day, and that thrills me.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The Game.


Nothing can prepare you for your first Husker game. Nothing.

This past weekend, some friends had an extra ticket to the Husker game. I obviously jumped with excitement as I told them I would LOVE to go! Going to a game has been on my list of things to do, and just hadn't gotten around to it. Upon hearing the news, the co-workers were jealous and felt the need to prep me, excite me, and get me all primed for this once-in-a-lifetime experience. But living here for almost a year, seeing games on t.v., watching this state's obsession, non of it, could have prepared me for what took place.

It was an 11AM game, so we got the move on early in the morning, in anticipation of major traffic and difficulty parking. I of coarse sported my all-too-necessary Husker shirt and hat, because to wear anything else would be blasphemy and most likely draw an unwanted scene. We parked and walked. When I say that all you can see in every direction is red, it is not an exaggeration. Literally everywhere. Seas and seas of red. The stadium holds an ongoing NCAA-record 306 consecutive sellouts, which began in 1962, and the second runner up is no where close. When full, Memorial Stadium holds about 80,000 people, which is more people than any Nebraska city except Omaha and Lincoln. But many more than the allotted ticket holders join the crowd to tail gate and watch on big screens outside. Even parking close to the entrances is only sold to a special select few, who get the honor and privilege to tail gate so close. Each of these cars is required by law to be; red, have Husker flags either panted or hanging, be in perfect condition, and sporting Husker fever loud and proud. Lounge chairs, massive t.v.'s, impressive bbq's, huge tables with spreads of food all adorn this sacred area.

Now, since it's impossible to just walk up to the ticket counter and buy tickets (since tickets are sold out years in advance) you have to have season tickets in your family for years, or you have to know someone who does. I am in the latter category. Our tickets were six rows up, at the 40 yard line (I'm told that you have to donate a mandatory amount to the school on top of the ticket price to even get seats this good!). Spectacular seats. I'm really not a huge football fanatic (don't tell anyone here that though!) but what I experienced on that field that day, changed me.

The band, cheerleaders, baton twirlers, and the like, put on an impressive pre-game show. Then, the tunnel walk, also known as the goose-bump enticer. As the players get ready to come out of the back, a patriotic and adrenaline boosting video is played with music that makes you believe you yourself could go out and battle the other team. The players rush onto the field and the game begins. The weather was beautiful and sunny, as we were packed into that red stadium. The crowd goes through the rhythm of chats and calls, all consisting of an enormous amount of clapping. And the noise level never goes down. Never. Even the energy is loud. I've been told that you don't find this type of energy anywhere else but in college football. A mother and her 6 year-old daughter sat behind me and cheered as if their life depended on it. The mother shouted out suggestions to the players. The daughter was frustrated with plays. And I realized in that moment, that children are literally bred into this frenzy. She knew more about football and the Huskers than I will probably ever know! And in that moment, you are convinced that the whole country is rooting behind you and watching this game. It's hard to believe that many people in the U.S. have never even heard of the mighty Huskers!

I wondered if the real reason why people in this state are Husker fans is due to the commradery of it all. The chance to band together and root for the same thing. To unify under something so dear and yet so simple. It's a feeling unparalleled, cheering with 80,000 other people for a single team. Cheering with people who you most likely don't see eye to eye on other major issues, but in football, you are united. It's overpowering and almost addicting. I felt that I missed out on attending a school like this to join ranks with fellow students behind the almighty football team.

The opposing team put up a fight, but didn't quite stand a chance. An impressive battle ensued, and the crowd was pleased. If they don't win, the whole town goes dark, quiet, and depressed. Luckily they won, and the town kept its spirits high. But let's be real; people come here to do more than just watch a football game. In some ways, it seems secondary. I had many moments of culture shock. The wheels were turning like crazy in my head the whole time. I was trying to understand and put it all together! And as I walked away from the stadium that day, I felt like a Husker. I was also told that now that I've been to a Husker game, my blood bleeds red. Good thing, cuz I'd be worried if it didn't!

Monday, September 6, 2010

A New Season Begins

It's that season again. The season when all of Nebraska turns red, literally. The season when all the focus is on Husker Football. This past Friday, I was asked if I knew what today was. Um, Friday? Nope. Someone's birthday? Nope, It's Husker Eve, which is a bigger holiday than even Christmas Eve! Apparently, the day before a game is Husker Eve, and the only thing anyone can focus on is game day the next day.


Although there is no way to 'forget' about Husker football around here, it does loose the center-stage-attention for half the year. It goes into a sort of hibernation. It's a cycle. At the end of the season, the State is riding on a high, and literally start the countdown until the next season. The high starts teetering off with each passing month. The talk then turns to new recruits, new strategies, who's going to play which position, and how many points we are going to win each game by! Then about half way through the 'off-season', the anticipation starts building again, slowly. 2 or 3 months out, people have a mental countdown to game day. New players names are memorized, along with their stats, history, and performance. Fans are speculating who is going to play what, and giving their two-cents on who should play what! Radio stations turn into soapboxes and sounding boards, and the state turns into little kids on Christmas morning, staring at those presents for weeks, about to explode.

Then before you know it, it's Husker Eve! The office is abuzz all day. Who is coach going to put in as QB? How will the defense hold up? Where are you watching the game? Thousands of people make the trek to Lincoln, even if they only tailgate in the parking lot or near the stadium. And the scene is just a sea of red for as far as you can see. Inside the massive stadium, the only color allowed is red. It's actually impressive. But if you can't make it down there and want to watch the game on T.V., be prepared to drop $40 on the pay-per-view fee!! I made the mistake of going in public on game day, in a non-red shirt. I was stared at, and judged I'm sure, by everyone else in color appropriate attire! I felt like an outsider, because the whole town was wearing red, not even kidding! I don't know how many little girls I saw in mini Husker cheerleader outfits, like it was no big deal and totally normal! Note to self, sport the red Husker shirt on game day from now on!

Oh Riggins...

The whole scene reminds me of the show 'Friday Night Lights'. For those of you who haven't seen it, start today! It is an exact replica of the Husker frenzy I just described, only it's about a high school team in Texas. There is just something about small towns bonding together on the one thing they have, football. Nothing much else is going on, and this one sport is something to rally behind and unify everyone. It's a precious situation, and I just love to sit back and smile at the whole thing!