Going Home

My visit 'home' has come to an end, and yet it is far time for me to go home. It's funny. When I am here, in California, I refer to Omaha as home. When I am in Omaha, I refer to California as home. California will always be home, but at the moment, I have a wonderful replacement. At any rate, my new home is calling and I can't wait to get back there. It seems like a terrible thing to say to people, 'Geez, I can't wait to get out of here and get back home!'. It sounds like I can't stand all these people and can't get away from them fast enough, so an explanation needs to follow each time I express my longing for home. Then again, it's also a real good sign that I am missing this new home of mine. It shows that I made the right move, (literally!), and a sign of my new-found happiness. If I didn't want to go back, well then, that would not be a good situation!

People were visited. Sights were soaked in. Parties were attended. All in all, mission accomplished. In many ways, this visit showed me that it feels like I never left. That I was here all along. The stores are all the same. My friends haven't changed. And so many other regularities I can always count on. Instead, I feel that I have changed. I am the one with new surroundings, new stories, new friends, all of which go along with my dialogue. Maybe those that I came back to visit are having a harder time adjusting to the 'new' me. This 'new' me that isn't able to be an integral part of the California 'scene'. As a result, I worry about slipping out of my friends lives, not because of hard feelings, but because I am just not around for all the little daily moments. After all, it's the little things that make up life. So, I am fighting hard to stay current on everyone's little moments in an attempt to latch on to my life here. To ensure that I don't abandon this life I have grown up in and built. Let's be honest though. Even if I wanted to 'lose' these people, I wouldn't be able to. And that's the best part about it!

So, off I go. Home. Back to a true winter, full of snow, ice and cold. Time to lock down a job. Time to start living! See you some other time California!